Adult Attachment Interview
During the class, we talked
adult about the attachment interview(AAI). There are three
major classifications of AAI ,which are secure-autonomous, dismissive and preoccupied.
I was wondering which type of AAI I belong to.
When we discussed on Hallmark questions on five adjectives describing the relationship
with my mother.
I had never thought about
this and also have had a hard time to answer it. The reason I hesitated about
this question is because I went through
two different classification. The first
stage of my life classifies as insecure-preoccupied. My impression of my mother
is loving,strict,nervous, afraid and kind until in high school. I realized that
I am belong to insecure-preoccupied despite her loving figure. I was preoccupied by confusion
or oscillation about my past experiences and overwhelmed by some frightening
experiences. I remembered that she sent me to my grandparents’ place for 2years
due to her overseas job posting when I was 9years old. I felt I was abandoned
by my mother and so angry that I only
talked to her over the phone a few times for two years. When I look back, this makes me
insecure and affects my relationship with my mother.
The second stage of my life
is secure-autonomous, which happened after becoming a Christian.I found
security and identity in Christ; it turned my world up-side down. God delivered
and saved me with His everlasting love. I always can remember “Therefore, if
anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is
here!”(NIV 2Corinthians 5:17)) . I can live abundance life in Jesus Christ.I
started to open my heart and had courage to share with my mother about my
feelings over childhood experience. There are a lot of misunderstandings and
family issues which I never understood as a nine year old little girl. My
mother told me her life stories, how she struggled life as a working young
mother and wife. She regretted that she didn’t give me much care and attention
during my childhood. After listening all these stories, I had better understanding
on my mother and started to respect her. I was so touched by her love to pour
out to child despite some mistakes she made. I am so thankful that God
reconcile relationship between my mother and me, now we are good friends. I
love my mother.
Reference
Crowell,
J. A. (2009). Adult Attachment Interview. In H. T. Reis & S. Sprecher
(Eds.), Encyclopedia of Human Relationships (Vol. 1, pp. 39-41).
Thousand Oaks, CA: SAGE Publications.